Monday, April 20, 2015

...enjoy it...

Enjoy it! They grow up fast.
Enjoy this. You will miss it once they are gone.
Enjoy it. They are only young once.
I know. I know, I know, I know.
But it is hard, right? I didn't understand what that meant when people told me that after Gabe. I am sure I responded with a slight smile....while thinking maybe:..I am so tired...they have no idea what this is like...right...I am...I haven't slept or can you enjoy this?...when will they/I sleep again???? This list could go on, I am sure.
Ironically, I actually told one of my friends who just had a baby to just "enjoy it." I felt the words coming out and couldn't stop them. Great. I have become someone who tells you that your kids aren't bundled up enough or that you are letting them sleep to much ;).
I have this serious problem with just being. I am constantly doing 3,002 things at once and I am not always sure why. I like to feel productive. I like ending the day and reflecting on those crossed off item from my to do list.
I have been working on trying to slow those precious times down. They are far and few between with Gabe is he is at the busy stage. Sometimes, I find myself starting to lay Gianna down for the night and stopping, only to pick her back up and smell her. Only to try to enjoy it just a bit more, because they are right. I am going to miss it. I am missing the minutes tick by only to realize that I am married. I have two kids. WHEN did that happen.
I love to take pictures to try to help me remember those moments. Sadly, much of my life isn't photogenic or capturable. Maybe, I don't have my camera with me. Maybe I am mid diaper change. Maybe I am tickling Gabriel.
I am slowly learning how to just enjoy it. Maybe the day won't be as productive as I originally thought, but that extra snuggle was worth it.

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